footsteps of a Starfish...

I love Sushi!!

2010-11-16T14:29:00.000-06:00

It was lazy Sunday.

i practically slept throughout the day after an exhausting and exceptionally fun Saturday night at Maples Peabody.

Hee...

So by the time i woke up, i was dead hungry.

I ended up with Kaley, Brooke, and Jerrad at "I love sushi" restaurant.

i dont know if its because im dead hungry or something, but all i know, the sushi was GOOD!!

but its totally different from sushi back home.

i dont know how to describe it, but its just different.

First of,

Miso!!

i dont know what they put in this soup but its really Yummy!!!

i suspect its MSG.. but i dont know..

Kaley & Brooke!!

Me & Jerrad!!

i look a little loopy here..

i guess i was malfunctioning at that time.

lol..

HUNGER can make someone a little loopy, i feel..

Greentea..

i was kinda excited with the green tea at first.

but after i tasted it, i feel it taste kinda weird.

i think its the nutty flavor.

i dont really like the nutty flavor.

urghhh...

but its weird for me having nuts with the greentea though..

shit!! i forgotten what's this called..

Rainbow sushi!!

Hiroshima Sushi!!!!

this, is the good shit!!

its so yummyyyyy!!!

like SUPER DUPER yummy!!!!

*drools*

my Baked salmon sushi!!

i love my salmon!!

mmm...

Hiroshima..

this is how it looks like inside..

overall, its a splendid night!

there's more about food post.

coming right up!!

*loves*

xoxo

toodles!!

mc...

Gay is Love!!

2010-11-14T17:40:00.002-06:00

first of,

I'm a stupid bitch who forgotten to bring her camera!!!!!!

I AM SUPER ANNOYED!!

seriously the only thing i regret about last night was not having my camera with me..

it was DRAG night at Maples Peabodys!!

and it was hell lots of fun!!!

oh, do forgive me with the low quality pictures coming up.

it was taken from my phone.

"1, 2, 3. Not only you and me. Got one eighty degrees. And im caught in between."

"Countin' 1,2,3. Peter, Paul, and Mary. Gettin' down with 3P. Everybody loves countin'."

one of the drag speakers of the night!!

Kaley and her friend who was one of the drags that night!!
He did "Single Ladies"!! HOT!!!

Snap Snap time!!

Bloo, me, and Roomie!!!

too bad cant see me..

i super love how we both look in this picture.
but i hate the toilet bowl behind. =.=

forgive us, we're both a lil tipsy!!

as usual, my tipsy camwhore moments.. XP

i actually cant really standstill in this picture.. HEE.. =D

*love*

seriously, i think i just love the camera when im tipsy!!

strike that pose, bitch!!

FYI, it was super freaking cold last night and i was totally so heated up from alcohol i couldnt feel the cold.
what am i?
madness?!!!!
i still cant believe that i could stand the cold..
unbelievable..

it was one hell of a crazy, mad night with the loves!!
love'em!!

well, that's it!!

time to get out of here now..

love y'all!!

xoxo

*toodles!*

mc...

There you go.. 4th November 2010..

2010-11-06T14:46:00.000-05:00

BEWARE!!
THIS IS ONE SUPER LONG POST!!!

as promised, 4th November 2010..

u ready? here we go..

so i went on with the day nonstop snapping pictures.
i think pictures are good illustrations.
hopefully u peeps love'em.

first picture of the day:

so i woke 40 minutes late.

and class today starts at 930am.

well, at least i managed to wake up.

and this is the shitty part.

everyday i gotta check the weather forecast before i leave my dorm.

its ridiculous but it helps a lot.

8C is not a warm start.

if u notice my status updates a few days ago, this is what im talking about.
thank god its better now.
i dont know what on earth bit me.
it itches so badly at night!!

and here i am, looking like a "ZOMBIE".
hope i dont scare u peeps.
my eyebags have gotten worse ever since i got here.
so this is the morning me.
blahhh...
=P

and this is what i got from the doc.
they call it, STEROIDS CREAM.
but seriously, "steroids"?
hmmm...
*raise eyebrow*

so most of them are my "morning friends".
and yes, i've learn the art of using listerine FINALLY!!
getting use to it.
hee.
=)

so this is my small lil kitchen i have in my room.

I DONT DO MY BED!!!

loves..

i dont know why i took this though.
shoes?
and laundry baskey?
i dont know.
whatever.

and this is my closet.
share u a secret, want?
well its not gonna be a secret anymore.
so, whatever.
if there's no clothes in the closet, its so spacious its enough to do "God knows what" inside the closet.
LOL..
nono, im serious.
trust me.
its big.

and here's my lil whiteboard with all the important dates of the month.
gahhh.....
=.=

so this is how i look like today.
=)

im about to go out now.
=)

this is where i'll always wait for moment till im ready to get out this door.
its so cold outside.
grrrr..... *shivering*

and yea, one of the notice board...

this is outside.
looks sunny?
yes, but super cold!!
yuck..

this is where i always look at myself before leaving the dorm.

i know, vain.

im quite.

and this is my dorm.
hee.
loves.

on the way to class...

and yes, there are uni buses.
fyi, i took this pic in a hurry.
felt kinda weird.
i bet people must thinking im mad snapping random pictures.
=.=
oh well...

and it was super windy this morning!!
i freaking hate the wind!!
not to mention the rain too!!
and that's because im walking now.
not like back home, i drive a lot and i still can go wherever with my car around.
and back home there's more shelter than they have it here.
i must say, texas has very less shelter and streetlights.
i mean, most of the carparks are outdoor carpark.
and at night, u can barely see streets at certain places because they have no streetlights at all.
so back to my day...

shortcut..
hee..

this is the environmental science building.
this is one of the entrance from the back of the building.
i was on my way for my astronomy class..
sien..

so can u see the clock?
yes, i was late.
im really starting to not like my astronomy class.
im so not motivated for this class.
and trust me, i wont take this class if i dont need to.
its a effing core subject.
YUCK!
everytime im in the class, my professor seems like she's in her own vibe.
i dont get it.
urghhh....
Aneeeeewaayyyy..

i was thinking what i should do for the day so that i can blog about it.
daydream session begins during class...
=D

so i was dreaming..

and look what i've found.
those post-it notes are things im suppose to do for the day.
so i finally found something to do after class.
=)

and this is the main entrance of the building.
the Environmental Science building.
so its thursday.
i suppose to have two classes.
but i dont have my night class today.
so i was free for the day.
i decided to see the Psychology Department advisor for advising (obviously. Pfffttt).

so this is Terril Hall.
the Psychology Department building.

so i went in right.
and i found out that this entrance is for the psychology clinic.
i never knew there's a psychology clinic in my uni.
cool!!
however, i gotta take the other entrance to the office.

and oh, do u know the elevators here doesnt have ground floor or lower ground floor buttons most of the time like we always have it in Malaysia?
they made it simple with 1st, 2nd, 3rd floors etc...

and this is the GAB (it stands for General Administration Building, i think)
this is where i always print my notes for FREE!!
loves..

yea, my urghh-not-so-amusing notes..
gahhhh...

took some pictures how the outside look like.

nice?

and this is University Union.
i dont exactly know how to explain to u peeps what's this building about.
its like miscellaneous.
there's cafeteria, uni's bookstore, uni's post office, the bank, etc..

mmm... they taste really good.
and its only a dollar something if im not mistaken.
yummmss..

UNT bookstore.

the Eagle Express.
UNT's postal service (post office).

and this, u dont have it back in Malaysia.
not that i know of.
this is a dvd rental machine.
cool eh?

and what is this?
this is the mailbox area.

my mailbox!!
but its pretty dead.
i dont have any mails except from the bank or the school.
and yes, what u're looking at is my cluster of small items.
so that thing has my mailbox key, room key, UNT card, usb, and a keychain.
=)

this is my P.O. box.

hardly any mails..

but today,

i have 2 mails.
not so excited about it.
blahh..

so this is the bank.
was at the bank for a while.
gonna pay my school fees for next semester.
=)

this is the outside the Union.
a lot of student hang out here quite often.
i sit here sometimes to people-watch.
ever since i got here, i've learned the art of "people-watching".
its really entertaining sometimes.
u just sit there and look at people walking by.
u'll see all types of people.

this is Bruce Hall (obviously again).
this is where i usually have my meals.
its a dorm with a cafeteria.
i signed up for meal plan so i can eat in any of the cafeterias on campus.

Bruce Hall main entrance.

Bruce Hall's cafeteria!!

this is the salad bar.
and they have vegan dishes as well.

one of the only 2 cereals i love,

COCOA PUFFS!!!

super yummy..

i had 2 bowls for lunch..

yummm....

and also, i've learned to drink tea.
usually i drink green tea or green tea with pomegranate.
but unfortunately they ran out.
so im stuck with english teatime.
fyi, that's my second bowl of cocoa puffs!!

this is where u get ur food.
buffet style.
i dont think u can really see what's written on top of the doors.
these 2 entrance are for home style food.

then we have the sandwich bar.
they have really nice sandwich.
=)

and this is only for pizza and pasta.

drinks..
all types..
they even have my favourite cranberry juice.
yumm...

so i was done with my lunch.
but then i met up with a few of my friends.

this is Jeremy.
he's super funny!!

this is kaley!!
isnt she adorable?

this is Jeremy's friend, Shelby.
=)

and they are apparently my parents!

and this is because they both want an asian child.

so im their asian child.

LOL.

today they had this weird pizza.
its like a dessert pizza.
weird!
it looks like an apple pie pizza.
eww..

Jeremy's favourite Rice Crisps cereals.

"Snap, Crackle, Pop!!"

it kinda have those cracking sounds when u add in the milk.

i dont know how he eat that thing.
he loves it..
i find it disgusting when it gets soggy and all.
eww..

so this is the library.

Willis Library.

outside the library.
and i started camwhoring after lunch.
i love sitting by the fountain outside the library just chilling or people-watching..

camwhore time...
=P

and it was super windy!!!

so after all the camwhoring, i went to the library supposedly to study.
but....
ended up....

camwhoring more..

and more...

and then i smile..

and i started getting sleepy..

no joke.. im serious.. sleepy..

seriously..

i said bye bye after all..
too much of willis..
urghhh...

u see that..
that's where i am!!
=P

need i say more?

i passed by this everyday..

these are some of the cool bikes i pass by everyday when i walk to class.
the black one is a harley davidson.
didnt really look like one though..

the red one was another one i like though.
doesnt really look good in pictures.
hmm...
wonder why...

my walk home.
=)

one of the buildings i pass by everyday.
the health centre.
Chestnut hall.
=)

the gym.
or,
recreation centre.
Pohl Recreation Centre.
=)

this field is only for education purposes.
u cant do sports here for fun.
its for ur course subjects.
cool eh?
imagine this is where u gotta go instead of a class.
=)

the path going home..

this is the korean restaurant.
its not bad.
yummm...
=)

reminds me im in fall now.
urghhh...

"dorm sweet dorm"..

this is in my dorm.

the corridor.
=)

finally!!! im home..

and its this cold when im home..
=.=
the weather seriously makes me feel sleepy..

so now im about to show u my other loves..
=)

this is my FAVOURITE cereals!!
=D

HONEY BUNCHES OF OATS!!!
WITH REAL PEACHES!!!
yummm....

and my milk.
i buy only this milk.
=)

this goes perfect with the cereals!!
i love my cranberries!!
*loves!!*

my oreos.

cool mint flavour..
love it!!

at night, kaley and kelsie decided to catch a movie.

Kaley with her asian pose..
wish brooke was there to join us.
=)

kaley, and KELSIE!!!!
love'em..

so this is one of the cinema theatres.
=)

loves..
=)

mini arcade in the building.

they look like they're about to attack me..

LOL..

Kelsie's gonna get meee!!!

asian pose..
=)

wondering what they're putting?

butter flavouring!!

so this was the movie we watched.
Easy A.

see how big is the popcorn..

its the salty popcorn.

love it..

so after movie, me and kelsie were hungry.

so we went Kerr Hall's cafeteria for supper..

this was what i had.
salad with italian dressing and some chilli hotdogs and fries.

Kelsie and her fries..
=)

me and my salad..

this is the coliseum..
i was on the way home..

walking..

this is UNT's tennis court.

so that's about it.
nothing much.
nothing special.
this is my life now.

so what do u think?

well, i finally satisfy myself updating my blog.

im getting out of here now.

*toodles!*

I MISS HOME!!
and
I MISS YOUUU!!!!
*u know who u are.*

hugs..

xoxo

mc...

COMING UP!!

2010-11-03T21:45:00.002-05:00

so its time to "REVIVE" my blog again..

the thing is, i really dont know what to blog about..

thanks to hugo's and shan's suggestion, i've decided to give it a try with the "daily-life" blogpost..

i pick tomorrow to storytell..

so wait up..

coming soon..

*toodles!*

Loving the Summer Breeze!!

2010-09-04T03:45:00.001-05:00

and im back again.. today im gonna share my day with u peeps.. it was such a good weather today!! i super super love the weather today!! i wish my love ones could enjoy the weather with me here.. it was sunny but windy.. and the wind today are so cooling!! i think its the end of summer and soon to be autumn.. enjoyed so much with the weather today..

but then again, i should've wore jeans today.. ever since i got here, i tend to wear clothes that aren't really suitable to the weather.. it was so chilly and i was wearing my denim skirt.. and omg!! i think im getting fatter!!! my skirt is tighter than before and my face is getting chubbier than before!! FML!!!! anyways, let's not talk about that.. stresses me out.. as i was saying, i should've wore jeans yesterday and today.. my legs felt so cold while walking to class even when its such a sunny day.. the wind are so cooling and chilly, its as if you're standing at the edge of a cliff enjoying the sea breeze wrapping around your body like tender fingers cuddling. The tranquility is just amazingly relaxing, "Ineffable"!!!

by the way, the word "Ineffable", i recently learned it from my dance appreciation class.. i was actually feeling quite weird with the word at first.. i thought it meant In-"F"-able.. get what i mean? LOL.. but then i checked the word up and i found out that what it meant was "incapable of being expressed or described in words; inexpressible, unutterable".. so yea, i learned a new word.. =)

considering it was such a nice weather, my roommate and her friend decided to go to the park just to chill and hang out.. it was fun!!!.. snapped some pictures.. hee.. =)

oh yea, i havent really introduced u peeps my roommate.. On the left is my roommate, she's Morgan.. and on the right is her friend, Bloo. =)

i personally love this picture!! =)

today's weather just totally took my breath away.. i mean i've never experienced weather like this before.. i was so carried away i totally stop thinking about my frustrations.. just totally made my day!! =)

talking about frustrations, im BALDING!!! (i think).. i mean my hair is so much thinner than before.. and i can see my scalp when i blowdry my hair.. i totally FREAK out!!!! hopefully its the climate change and water, if not im DOOM!!! i've been feeling so naked with my hair lately.. *sobsobsob* T.T

well, i've got to go now.. getting ready for karaoke tonight.. Yay!! hopefully i'll have fun..

toodles!!

xoxo

mc...

P.S. i thought i post up earlier but i didnt.. i was supposed to post this up yesterday before i left for karaoke.. so my bad, this post is meant for friday.. =)

Heyya.. I'm finally back again..

2010-08-27T23:38:00.005-05:00

Im finally in the land of U.S.A.!!!

i guess it took me so long to update my blog because a lot has been happening throughout these couple of months.

Happy ones, Sad ones..

whatever it is, i really want and hope things will get better.

Life here in the States is just not what i've expected.

Its way tougher than i thought.

but i know im gonna be fine.

but also, i would like to thank my friends who were there for me.

love y'all!!

also, i gotta thank my friend amanda so much for taking care of me.

thank god i have her here.

she's such a sweetheart.

she's super nice.

i cant tell u how much i appreciate her help and everything she's done for me.

Special thanks to a special someone for always being there for me too, almost all the time.
*u know who u are*
(but i dont appreciate u laughing at my previous blog post!! i was young and stupid.. so stop laughing!! blek!! =P)

now that im here, i wish i could just finish up my studies ASAP and go home!!

desperately need to graduate ASAP!!

i miss home so freaking much!!!

i miss everything and everyone back home!!

i guess sometimes u dont know how much u have until u're not with it anymore.

didnt realise i was living in my bubble.

well, i guess this is gonna be a great experience for me.

im gonna give my best and make the best out of it.

thing's been tough but its getting better day by day.

hanging in there..

well, that's it for now.

leaving u guys with a song that u guys may think that its gay..

learn to love it.

xoxo

mc...

just an update..

2010-06-15T08:01:00.004-05:00

its been almost 2 months since the last post.
and baby dearest has been bugging me for days about updating my blog.
there honey.. happy now?
lol..
oh by the way honey, i enjoyed every single bit when i made u to show me how much u want me to update my blog..
lol..

i wanted to post up a short and simple one initially.
but then again, its been a very long time since a proper update of my life.

well, its been months since im in a relationship..
and im enjoying every single minute of being in a relationship with YOU.. (err... besides the sucky part yea.. hehe.. just joking.. am i?.. hmm.. go figure..)

and its been a fantastic journey so far..
the ups and downs..
well, lets not bring up the downs alright?

first thing first, i've finally got accepted to UNT, University of North Texas..
the only things that left to worried about are the payments, visa, and accommodation..
if everything goes well, i'll be leaving mid of august.. *sobsobsob*
but i hope everything will go well in the end..
i know im gonna miss so many of u back here..
but i guess the person i'll miss the most is him..
sigh.. u hear that bee, im gonna miss u most.. happy? (u better be.. u should be.. OR ELSE!!)
lol..
but not to forget, i'll definitely miss all my friends here..
hope u guys wont forget me after i leave..
i even cried about not wanting to leave u guys when i was tipsy..
dont forget me alright?
hehe..

oh, also, i've passed all my subjects last semester!!
super glad about it.
cgpa definitely went up, even if its a bit..
yay!!
=)

for now, im working in my dad's office in Ampang.
earning some extra pocket money.. hehe..
and obviously that's for a reason, for many reasons in fact.. *grins*
well, one of them is because i'll be going Bangkok on the 26th for shopping..
yay!!
cant wait for shopping over there!! =)

come to think about it, i've left less than 2 months time in Malaysia..
i feel pretty ironic now.
before getting to know that i got accepted, im dying and longing to go..
but now when i finally know that i got accepted and im leaving in 2 months time,
i never expected myself feeling so heavy hearted as i am now..
and its gonna be tough i'll definitely miss home and all..

but at least on the bright side, i get to celebrate my birthday before i leave..
=)
anyway, besides the important month of august, July is also an important month.
hehe..
right baby?
hehehehe..
its someone's birthday on July..
*grins*

there's been a lot going on within these couple of months.
but what im most happy about is that,
for the first time in my life,
my parents finally accepted the fact that im in a relationship.
to me, that's really something.
a big something.
im really glad that both our parents are so far okay with our relationship..
its a great big step and i definitely feel really happy about it.

we really went through a lot during baby's semester break.
it was really a great step forward no matter how.
i guess what's great is that we get to know each other in a different way.
we get to know another side of us through our families.
it was really something during baby's semester break.

i think that's all for this post.
will update more about my life soon.

toodles!

- p e a c e -

P.S. i know you'll not be satisfied with this post honey.. wait up alright? =)

mc...

2010-05-07T03:20:00.002-05:00

I NEED HELP!

I NEED A NEW DESIGN FOR MY BLOG!!

IM GETTING REALLY BORED WITH HOW MY BLOG LOOK LIKE RIGHT NOW!!

ANYONE??!!!!!!

Joke of the day!!

2010-04-26T07:13:00.003-05:00

My bro just showed me a joke..

enjoy peeps!!..

Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius ...

Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable ?

PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws, same like when you dig your nose with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more than men?

PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you dig dig your nose, your nose feel better than your finger, right ?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get raped ?

PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the load(road),den someone come over and dig your nose, you like or not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siow ah !Use your Blain(brain), use your blainnn ..........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they are making love?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a glove on your finger or not ? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Collect (correct) or not?

Aloy : Why is making love carried out in private ?

PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use your blainnnnn . you go and dig your nose in flont of your whole class izit ?? stupid lah!!

Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you are very good.

PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore and JB, some say Batam, and now the whole world also ah !!!

hope u enjoyed it!!

<3>

i guess the pictures tell it all...

2010-04-13T10:59:00.005-05:00

*wink*

Yup!!
He's my man now.

love!!

*blush*

im happy again!!

*smiles*
=)

Sean John Unforgivable Woman!!

2010-04-13T10:47:00.003-05:00

this is one super delayed post..

anyway...

i still wanna thank my friend Ken Juan!!

after months of longing for my Sean John Unforgivable, i finally got it!!

Thanks so much to my dear friend KEN JUAN!!

mwahs!!! =)

Cupcakes!!!

2010-03-05T03:04:00.004-06:00

Finally!!!

My first successful batch of Cupcakes!!!

Yay!!!

*this is the 4th time i baked by the way.*
the first 3 times i failed horribly!

Totally cheers me up!!!

there's something else that totally cheers me up when i think of it..
will post it up on my next post!!
haven't take a picture of it yet..
hee...

Yay!!! again...

mwax

xoxo

the beginning of a new chapter..

2010-03-04T02:22:00.004-06:00

its a new chapter of my life..

its a new start..

it'll be tough but this is the decision i've made..

im gonna stick to it no matter what..

wish me luck!!!

Bad Luck!!

2010-02-11T00:51:00.002-06:00

i think im having bad luck lately..

yesterday i fought with my maid and got annoyed by some pharmacist!

today, i couldnt make it for my quiz which i intentionally studied for it (which its a once in a blue moon thing for me)!!

How bad could my day get?!!!

Now, the only thing that im hoping and praying so hard for is that i could retake that quiz!!

please pray for me people!!!!
i need all the luck i could get!!

=(

toodles.

mc...

P.S. last night when i was studying, i thought of the days where me and Mie used to drive out to KFC for mash potatoes and she'll make toasts to go with it.. i miss those time so much!!! now no one will make those toasts for me to go with the mash potatoes even if i drove out to get it..

Sean John Unforgivable..

2010-02-09T02:12:00.004-06:00

this is what i've been longing for months.
but this is also what im feeling right now.
feeling unforgiving and its unforgivable to feel what im feeling right now.

If u havent seen my fb status, this is what it says.

You took my heart away when i first saw you
and then you tortured it with love.
Now you left me hanging in there,
leaving me breathless with every breath I take,
telling me that you're that kind of thing that I can't afford to have.
Sometimes I feel brutally tortured,
but seeing the thing that I really wanted
knowing that I couldn't afford to have it,
is even painful than being brutally tortured.

whether if its love for someone or something u really wanted to buy,
do u agree with this feeling?

i know this sounds pretty emo..

but think about it,
sometimes life brings us to this point,
and this is when u ask urself,

"WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?"

what would u do?
feel free to comment.

=)

till then.

xoxo

mc...

2010-02-08T06:39:00.003-06:00

IM REALLY GONNA MISS THIS WOMAN!!!!

Camie Lee Pei Siew, im gonna miss u!!!

Feedbacks about my hair colour..

2010-02-04T06:07:00.003-06:00

"i should dye my hair darker."
-2-

"u just need to get used to it. its fine"
-1-

My new hair colour!!

2010-02-04T05:28:00.004-06:00

i dont know whether this is a catastrophe or its okay..
my hair right now is......

i think its pretty blonde!!!

take a look..

sorry about the pj's.. i just woke up.. feeling slumber though..

at first i think the colour is too light so it looked really bright..

im pretty worried that it'll look "Lala-ish"..

but its pretty much how u look at it right?

i think im getting used to it right now..

but im still not so sure about my parents..

they still havent looked at it yet..

i have a big feeling that they wont like it at all..

so the big question right now is

"SHOULD OR SHOULD I NOT RE-DYE MY HAIR A DARKER TONE?!!"

people, please do me a favour and give me ur opinion..
im pretty much in a dilemma..

=(

loves.

mc...

Hello FEBRUARY!!

2010-02-01T04:40:00.003-06:00

Currently watching: Sherlock Holmes

so its the first day of the month of February..

hope you'll treat me nice, my dear February..

so i've decided in which phone i want already..

the Nokia E72.

the only 2 things left to worry about is

- getting dad to get it for me

- colour of the phone to decide

people, please pray that my dad hear my prayers and get it for me..

lol...

im getting frustrated here..

really wanna get it done and over with ASAP..

going back to watch my Sherlock Holmes now.

*toodles!*

xoxo

mc...

Dilemmass!!!

2010-01-28T22:37:00.008-06:00

Currently TiVo watching: Nigella Feasts on Travel & Living channel (Channel 707 on Astro)

right now im home chilling..
going out in the evening with my mom and the 2 monkeys (my brothers)..
so plan for this evening should be:

- pick lil bro up from school - rush home - rush to klcc..

rushing evening for me..
its gonna be crazy for me..

I HATE RUSH HOUR!!!!

why does he gotta end school at 5pm?!!!
arghhh!!

oh anyway, i hope i'll be able to get a new phone today!!
but chances are pretty low though..
but i really need a new phone!!!

im pretty much in a dilemma right now!!
should i get a Blackberry Curve 8520 or the Samsung Star S5603?

the Samsung Star S5603

or

the Blackberry Curve 8520

please give me some comments people!!

but however, pray for me alright?
pray that i'll be able to get a new phone today!!

I REEEEAAAALLLLYYYY NEED A NEW PHONE!!!

my current phone is like shit right now..
it can just switch off itself..
amazing right?!
stupid phone of mine..

pray alright?
pray ya!!

im gonna do my hair next week.
im planning to dye my hair..
but i dont know what colour to dye..
was planning something light but im afraid i'll look lala..

so i think for the safer side, i think i'll dye something darker..

im still considering.
hope i'll make up my mind soon.
=)

also, should i cut my hair short at the back?
or should i just leave it?

why am i surrounded with dilemmas lately?

arghhhh!!!....

that's it for now..
wish me luck!!
=)

*toodles!*

xoxo

mc...

5 years difference!!

2010-01-27T02:04:00.010-06:00

so.. i just came back from my "beloved" high school..
*sarcasm*
went back and took my SPM cert..

OMG!! within just 5 years, the school made quite a difference from what i remembered..
well, pictures tell more than anything..
so pictures away...
=)

for those who dont know, this is my school..
we use to have morning assembly here..
and this basketball court is where I always fall asleep when there's long morning assembly..
there werent many cars back then..
look at it now..
full of cars..

there werent any notice board back then..

this wall used to be just one plain colour..

i was laughing at this..
reminds me one of my most annoying discipline teacher, Mr. K. K. Chan.
i remembered he used to walk around with cardboards written with things like "Do not run." or some shit like that..
it was lame..
i used to think,"Can't he talked?" instead of pointing that kinda of signboard with his stupid cane?
oh, he also always have a handkerchief..
sometimes i think he's gay but he has a daughter..
hmm...
he's quite feminine to think about it..
lol..

this is the office's corridor..
"Do your best"?
"The early bird catches the worm"?
im definitely laughing at these..

they repainted the canteen walls..
looks new now..

they even put up the "no smoking" advertisement..

the open hall.. its with tiles now.. it used to be cement only..

and guess what, now they have a flat screen Tivo in the open hall.. wtf..

nope.. these wasnt up back then..

now they even have a map!! gosh!!

"We go home with success"? okay.. im really speechless..
lol..

telephone booth outside the school!!

it was funny how things have changed..
its so different already..

okay, this is nothing to do about the 5 years difference thingy..
its just that when i got home..
i saw this!!

dad stocked up the red wines!!
YAY!!!!
it must be for CNY..
that put a smile on my face =)
LOL...
*evil grins*

well, that's it for now..

*toodles!*

mwax!!
<3

mc...

Blog Revived after 7 months!!!

2010-01-26T12:39:00.004-06:00

Currently listening: Falling Out by Keyshia Cole

its been 7 freaking long months and now im back blogging again..
im not gonna storytell about what happened within these 7 months cause a lot has happened.. anyway, im back now..

okay, let's see what to talk about..
hmm..

"What made me wanna blog again?"

i guess i've been looking at some of my friends' blogs lately and sometimes reading my friends' blogs made me feel like blogging again..
dont know why..
also, i do a lot of thinking whenever im driving alone..
thoughts always come up and that made me wanna write these thoughts somewhere..
but there's nowhere i feel like writing down besides my blog..
besides friends been encouraging me to blog again..
so yea, here i am..

"What going on in my mind right now?"

its going 3 in the morning now..
i really wanna change my sleeping time earlier..
its so hard to wake 630am in the morning to send my sis to school with me sleeping this late..
argghhh...

Currently listening: Hands on Me by Vanessa Carlton

anyway, i guess that's all for now..
will update again when i thought of something..
hope i wont bore u peeps..

*toodles!*

mwax!
<3

P.S. its funny now that im back blogging, i cant seem to think of what to talk about..
till then i guess..

mc...

2009-06-17T10:36:00.004-05:00

"Currently listening: Matt Nathanson - Falling Apart"

so i finally got over my commemorative speech today.

i presume i did quite badly cause i was pretty much reading from my notes.

sigh.

but oh well, im done with it.

hopefully i'll at least get half of the full marks.

i went back for ballet class after such a long time.

i tell u, its not easy at all. In fact, it was pretty hard.

really need to pick up my technique!

hopefully i wont quit half way again...

im guessing there's quiz tomorrow.

trying to get hold on studying the 2 chapters for it but just cant seem to do so.

procrastination!

2 or 3 more weeks to finals!!

i must keep telling myself to study for the upcoming finals!!!

arghhhh......

hopefully everything goes well!!

gotta get back to my chapters now..

wish me luck!!!!

=)

xoxo

*mwahs!*

mc...

MY STUPID MAID!!!!!!

2009-06-10T06:40:00.003-05:00

im so annoyed by my stupid maid now.

Angel used to listen to me very much.

but now, she's like sticking to my maid like she doesnt want me anymore..

my stupid maid has brainwashed her by giving her snacks!!!

im so bloody annoyed now..

im the kind of person who cannot handle being abandoned!

now even my dog is abandoning me!!

FUCK!!!

so bloody annoyed!!!

i hate my maid!!!

I HATE MY MAID!!!!!

so bloody jealous now!!!

my own baby doesnt want her mummy already!!!

what is wrong with the world now?!!!

I HATE MY MAID!!!!!

arghhhhh!!!........

mc...

2009-05-26T10:37:00.005-05:00

Nobody can truly understand what i am going through at this point of life. I do not wanna bore you people with what exactly im going through. but what I can talk about is what I have learn recently.

this is what I have learn recently:

"Friends come and go, Boyfriends come and go, Sadness come and go, Happiness come and go. But no matter what situation it is, nobody can help you but yourself and this is when Positivity comes into the picture. Let positivity get you through in any circumstances."

honestly speaking, I have never felt that positivity is important in life. Although I can say right now, Im not really feeling very positive about things that have been happening in this month, but Im really trying to be positive as much as possible.

there'll be nobody but you alone in the end. you just gotta stay strong no matter what.

mc...

2009-05-17T00:26:00.008-05:00

currently listening : Utada Hikaru - Come Back to Me

i know its been two months plus.

but oh well, been real lazy to update.

what's new is that im finally braces-free!!

this is me braces-freee!!!!

work with marcus and freda.

Had a family trip to Penang.

Some camwhore pictures while being dead bored in the car for long hours.

My brother.

Lately, i've been so damn addicted to the song "Nobody" by Wonder Girls.

check out their Music Video.
they're so hot!!
wish i could be like them!!
smoking hot!!

the video is quite hilarious as well.

Enjoy!

this is helo bali back last month.

and that's it for now!

*toodles!*

- p e a c e -

mwahs!!

mc...

Finally i have time to UPDATE!!

2009-02-28T16:17:00.010-06:00

been wanting to update so badly but been so busy throughout the week!
Geez!!

anyway, there's a lot to update and i dont know where to start!!

well, i shall start from Space.

so the gang and i went to Space last Saturday.
*FYI, Space is a club, not as in the real Space!

here are some pictures from dear's (aka Freda) phone.

In Space...

at Ernest's S15.

more pictures with the others..

when we got home, dear sprained her ankle!
lol...
and her ankle look like this the next day!
lol..

took some picture of her massaging her leg with an egg.

then later at night, mom ajak me to Carrefour.
and i believe some of u saw my msn nickname and facebook status..
so let me show u a picture of the trolley with groceries worth 900bucks!
GUILTY ME!
=(

this is mom mumbling about me and my brothers buying so much..

ta-daa!!....

the receipt turns out to be this long!

the next morning, we end up having our Fiest!!

we had french fries, nuggets, drummets, paratha, and mutton!
mmm....
yummy....

well, that's about it for now.

*toodles peeps!*

- l o v e -

mc...

2009-02-18T09:50:00.010-06:00

hey peeps!

just another update about the past few days..

on monday, i seriously feel that that's one of those days when im so productive!

i sent my sis in the morning.

i went for the whole full 2.5 hours of classes. (i usually will leave the class half way during lecture when it's too bored.) *cheers for me!*

picked up my laptop. (sent for repair.)

then picked up aunt kathy's brithday cupcakes from uptown.

the cupcakes are specially ordered for her...
hehe..

guess what are those....

hehehe...

went to the showroom to celebrate aunt kathy's brithday.

overall, i actually completed most of my tasks for the day!

Hoorah! for me....

hehehhehe.....

on tuesday, i also went for the whole full 4 hours of classes. *applause!*

then went home to meet up with the gang..

waited for them to bake the blueberry cheesecake..

and i tell u, it tasted damn good alright..

what's unexpected was that "chef lim" actually knows how to cook and bake man..
lol..

then we went to mid valley for movie..

watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button."

Ratings : 3.5/5

although the movie was kinda long, but it was a good movie..

a must-watch movie!

*thumbs up!*

went home after movie, "chef lim" cooked malaysian-style shepherd's pie!

it tasted so delicious!
*mmmm.....Yummm!.....*

will try my best to get those pictures uploaded..

after dinner was mahjong and pillow-talk session..

my "ah-dear" during pillow-talk session.

as usual, i eventually fell asleep..

and as for today, i went karaoke at red box with the 2 crazy woman!

shan & freda!

had one hell of fun during karaoke session..

then head home..

marcus and ewen drop by and invited us for dinner..

went to shan's to see my new godson!

FYI, he's a poodle pup!

i named him "Chubaka"..

but he's real name is called "Junior"..

he's actually shan's dog's pup...

he's so so damn cute!!!!!

here's some pictures of him..

hehe...

enjoy!

so this is my little baby "Chubaka"!

*isn't he adorable?!

bitting his mama's fingers while enjoying his treat.

this is Junior's Dad, Feedo.

well, that's about it!

toodles peeps!

- p e a c e -

mc...

P.S. Many apologies if the obscene pictures are offending. *peace!*

2009-02-13T05:55:00.004-06:00

im just so lazy to update my blog right now..
but just feel like updating my blog.

lately been kinda upset about my studies..
parents wants me to go to Australia now and no longer support the idear of me going to the US for my further studies..
they're afraid that US is just too far away from home..

im just so upset of the whole idea of going to Australia for my further studies..
i mean all along i've been hoping to further my studies in the US..
but now, my hope is crushed!
sigh....

now im really annoyed that im going to Australia..
but however, nothings final until im applying for Universities..

hope i still can pursue my studies in the US in the end..

anyway, it's valentine's eve today..
never really had a good celebration for Valentine's day..
oh well, im invited to this 'anti-valentine' event tonight..
hope i'll have fun with my peeps!!

that's all for now!

"Happy Valentine's Day!"

toodles....

- l o v e -

mc...

2009-02-07T12:26:00.004-06:00

i so so so wanna buy these two!!!!!

by the way, i had my first photoshoot!

here's sneak-peak!

Boo!

that's about it for now..

finding ways to cheer my "dear" (aka freda) right now..

*toodles!*

- p e a c e -

mc...

Updates & Dilemma!

2009-02-04T01:14:00.006-06:00

some updates for u peeps..

went for rock climbing last sunday with janice, denise, sheryll, and darryl. lynn supposed to come as well but she had to do some visiting with her family. too bad for her.

anyway, u can see some pictures from sheryll's blog. Click here.

this is my first experience in rock climbing. didnt know that it's that fun. i find it really addictive as well. u peeps should give it a try.

hehe..

went for a movie with kian thong and edison yesterday. enjoyed the movie a lot. we watched "Red Cliff 2".

Ratings : 4/5

it's really a must-watch-movie!!

so right now, im in a big fat dilemma!

This coming friday i will be spending a weekend getaway with the girls at Pulau Perhentian. but at the same time, my tutorial presentation has been pushed up to this coming friday and it's 2.5% which i couldnt really afford to lose it.

i have two options right now.

A) Skip the tutorial presentation and go for the getaway. then the consequences are forgoing the 2.5% and i have to find a replacement teacher for my ballet class. but the worst part is that i couldnt find a ballet replacement teacher up till now.

B) Skip the trip and stay in kl. but the thing is that this is actually a postponed trip with the girls. because this trip suppose to be on the 22nd Decemeber but due to my family trip was postponed to that day, this trip has been postponed to this coming friday. and i personally feel that it wont be nice to postponed the trip again and besides, it's gonna be a very short notice. and things are basically quite finalized.

what am i to do?

OMG!!!

im so FRUSTRATED right now!!

anyhow, hope things will be fine in the end.

that's about it peeps!

*toodles!*

- p e a c e -

mc...

2009-01-28T02:01:00.003-06:00

"You think you’re loving
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me
You don’t love me
I want to be free
Baby you’ve hurt me"

-"Warwick Avenue" by Duffy-

i heard this song when i was watching tv rotting in the hall this afternoon.

i wanna dedicate this qoute to all of u people who's in the same shoes that i was in.

2009-01-20T10:59:00.005-06:00

right now,

im sad.
im upset.
im heartbroken.
im unhappy.
im annoyed.
im irritated.

but in the end,
i know i will be fine.

just for now,
i am really down.

now,
seeing him makes me hate him,
but in the same time,
as much as i hate him,
i know part of me still feels for him.
because if i dont,
i wouldnt feel the immense hurt and pain.

anyhow, i pray that i'll get over it.

so im in the process of growing up,
enjoying my single life,
getting over with the past,
and recovering from the pain and wound.

so i wish me all the best.
and pray that everything will be fine.

a road that seems so long,
i await to enjoy every step i take in this new journey.
no matter what it'll bring to me,
sadness or joy.
i'll go through it and shall try my best to enjoy it.

wish me all the best, u guys!

till then.

*toodles.*

- l o v e -

mc...

2009-01-19T09:05:00.003-06:00

was down with migrane the whole day..
anyhow, emotionally, it's kinda hard to describe what im feeling lately these days.
im not quite sure myself..

just feeling a little worked up due to some personal issues..
hope i can settle this before CNY..
i wanna have a great CNY..

just wondering, if say u're in a relationship, have u ever wonder whether ur partner will cheat on u some day?
well, honestly, i did when i was in a relationship..
but i never knew that he cheated on me back then..
but after breaking up, he told me himself that he actually slept with quite a number of girls during the relationship..
when i heard that, i dont know what to feel..
i was totally blank..
not sad, not upset, not heartbroken..
because the conversation was already heated up, and i have already have that hatred in me for him..

but honestly, it wasnt that bad knowing about it..
im actually not surprise that he did sleep with girls..
because all along i feel that he couldnt be trusted..
not even reliable..

if u ask me, why did i hang on to this relationship this long?
i can said that yes, i was in love with him and hoping that one day he would change for a better life..
but unfortunately, in the end, it made not much difference..

to me, i feel that being with a person without a sense of security, and being able to hope and wish that i have the capability to change him, i guess everyone has their limit to have that kinda hope..
but to me, i have given my all..
when it comes to him, i have left nothing to hope for..
i just dont know why..
it all happened so fast..
i have ran out of patience, endurance, and mostly importantly, hope.
i didnt even know that i've ran out all of these until i felt that everything was falling apart..
i have given all of these to him..
but my effort just went down to the drain in the end..
and in turn, i look like the mean girlfriend who dumped him..
i ask myself, what did i get out of all this?
the only answer i can think of is stupidity..
one hell of a simple beautiful stupid mistake..

i didnt know that i was trying to achieve the impossible..
i was trying to prove to all my friends that they're wrong about him..
i guess i overestimated my capability..
hoping one day that i could influence him and make him understand what's best for him..

well, i have left nothing to give to him now..

i dont know how did i get here..

but oh well, im just saying, do appreciate the people u love, do appreciate the things that people u love did for u..
because when the people u love have given all what they have, and when there's nothing left, they will just start to wonder,
"i have nothing left for u, what else can i give? what else u want from me?"
"after all i've done, why doesnt it make a difference?"
and in the end, u're the one who's pityful..
cause personally, in my case, i pity him because he has just lost one more person to hope for him, pray for him, care for him..

i dont feel that it's a lost to me..
in fact, i feel that it's his lost..

nothing else more to say..
literally speechless..

- p e a c e -

mc...

2009-01-17T10:25:00.005-06:00

feeling a little emotionally unstable lately..
and mainly it's because of the recent break up..
i know i know..
another break up right?
but anyhow, im gonna look at it in a good way..

what i can say is that detachment is very challenging if u've been attached for quite some time.
so far, i know it's kinda hard for me.
but im living up to it.

i hope i can keep it up with the optimistic behaviour.

so i've been working during the weekends..
yeah yeah, i know..
michelle chong chooi mei is working..
lol.

well, what i can say is that it's a good experience..
although it's tiring, but i guess it's worth it..
in terms of the pay and the experience..

another thing, im glad that i have very nice teammates..
although there were arguments before the job started, but overall, we're cool..

so this was taken last week in the car on the way to somewhere..
forgotten where already..

obviously, it's me.

that's Rudy. Our supervisor.

that's us..

again..

well, that's about it for now..
there are a lot more to update but it's getting late now..
and im really very tired.
dozing off now..

*toodles!*

-mwahs!-

mc...

2009-01-15T12:49:00.002-06:00

It's a new beginning.

A fresh start.

Michelle.

Lumut/Pulau Pangkor Holiday!

2008-12-27T11:42:00.002-06:00

hey peeps!
im back from Lumut!
hehe...
=)

the holiday at Lumut was not bad..
didnt really get to see Lumut though..
stayed home for the first two days..
then went to Pulau Pangkor from lumut the third day..
spent the whole day at the beach..
then off we went back to Lumut..
came back to KL the next day..

i had like a photoshoot session when we were at the seaside..
cause basically we had nothing to do..
was protecting our belongings from those stupid cheeky monkeys most of the time..
they love stealing especially our food..
surprisingly, they love potato chips and 100plus..
weird huh?..

right now, im kinda frustrated that i couldnt upload the pictures cause i couldnt find the cable for the camera..
Ish!!!!.......

anyhow, will upload the pictures to refresh you peeps about my Lumut/P. Pangkor holiday!
hehe....

so that's about it for now...

*toodles!*

- s m i l e -

=)

love,
mc...

xoxo

2008-12-19T11:00:00.003-06:00

To all,

I'm wishing you a very

Merry X'mas!

&

a Happy New Year!

Have a amazing holidays, people!

Happy Holidays!!

enjoy...

Lots of Love,

Michelle.

My Poor Blog.....

2008-12-19T10:18:00.003-06:00

it's gonna be nearly a month since i've abandoned my baby blog...
poor thing...

reasons are just simple...
either,
busy with finals,
lazy,
no time,
no mood,
nothing to blog,
blablablablabla......

very irresposible i am..

but however, im back...

i've just visited some shopping website
and i so wanna buy so many things......

(dresses, bags, tops..................)

OMG!

sometimes, i really wish i do know how to print money!

still prefer money! <3 href="http://autumncloset.blogspot.com/">autumn closet

Mimpi ♥More

like seriously

spree and beauty

Dandelion's Kisses

Miss Shopaholic's Closet

Kiss.My.Shopping.Ass

Bunny Noo

A.Fashion.Reborn

Behind the Seam

Dirty Stiletto

lush serendipity

PHAT Culture

peaches & pixies

and most of it, i knew about it from A Shopaholic's Den.

=)

Do check it out!
u'll find a lot of stuff!
=)

anyhow, been going out for the past few days with my mom and my 2 brothers..
most of the time shopping for the festive season.

well, it's getting late..

will update u guys more about what's happening later...

so long!

*toodles!*

Warmest Regards,
mc...

xoxo

2008-11-24T10:36:00.005-06:00

so finally, parent's bought me a new laptop.
it's the Compaq Presario CQ 45-144TX.

it's cost RM 3,199.
comes with free 1GB RAM, a mouse, laptop bag, mouse pad, and a pendrive.
im quite satisfy though.

oh, brought Leo to the vet and shaved him bald on yesterday.
so poor thing..
he's having ears infection, eye infection, and skin infection altogether.
so poor thing..
he's been looking quite sad lately and also no appetite.
seeing him like this i feel so guilty and sad.
sigh...
should have taken good care of him.
now, he looks like a pug/chihuahua.
just weird.

but he's still my handsome baby boy...
hehe...

mom wanted to take some pictures before shaving him bald.
mom loves him having thick fur but too bad he cant have thick fur anymore.
the vet said that it's too hot for him to have thick fur.
and that's why he has skin infection.
now he's on medication.
my poor baby.
sigh..

but he's feeling much better now.
at least he has the appetite now.
=)

well, been staying home lately.
so nothing much been going on.
so will update later on.

*toodles!*

- l o v e -

mc...

it's hurting....it hurts badly....

2008-11-18T01:45:00.005-06:00

my heart has been broken for God knows how many times..
and each time, it hurts so badly..
the only different thing is the way i deal with it.

i still remember the very first time someone broke my heart.
it was like a knife poking through ur heart a few times,
and everytime after poking through ur heart,
it gets even painful like it has been sprinkled with salt on each wound.

it's funny that the way that i described is so practical,
but in fact, it is a feeling that we cant feel literally on our body but in our mind..

im writing this with my utmost pain in my broken heart.
i have never imagine that i can be hurt this badly again..
i guess everytime is equally that painful..

there are many things that are unexpected to me.
i didnt expect that i can still be hurt.

i thought i was stronger than before, tougher than before.
but in fact, i am just as weak as before.

feeling really depressed and useless.

cant believe all the bad things can happened at the same time to me.

i lost my relationship, i lost the person i love.
and im losing my part-time job as a ballet teacher next month.

im feeling useless that im not strong enough to get through all of these.

i know most of u will think that me and nick will sooner or later get back together.
but i really dont know.

i didnt realise that i can hate him.
i didnt realise that i have lost my patience and hope on him until he told me so.
i didnt realise that after all these, i can still feel deeply hurt.

all along, i thought that no matter how many arguments we go through,
as long as we still love each other, nothing can come across the both of us.
but until yesterday i realised that it doesnt work that way.
even though u love each other so much, things will not go that way.

he finally got fed up of me and told me to leave him.
the worst part was that he actually told me to leave him three times.
and also, the last time we talked, he even said that it's best that we shouldnt get back together.

just imagine all those "i'll never leave you..i'll always love you" things that he said.
all those sweet promises,
all these turned out to be a big fat lie.
and now, it all just went to the drain.

then again, i just realised that im just as naive and as stupid as before.
i thought i was stronger and that nobody can hurt me anymore.
but after what happened, it just prove that i might just be as stupid and naive as ever.

the thing i dont understand is that why must i be the stupid one?
i dont seem to get an answer.

i just feel so helpless to myself and so so useless.

right now, i can actually understand how those people who attempted suicide feels.
i do feel like killing myself out of frustration.
but then again, i dont have the guts to just end my life,
as i believe God has only the rights to end mine.

im feeling depressed, useless, frustrated, angry, and deeply hurt.

what else can get worse?

just feel so useless that im not strong enough to get through this..

what should i do?
i dont know what i can or should do.

why is everything just seems like falling apart?
i have no idea at all.

mc...

Lonely?

2008-11-13T11:33:00.003-06:00

feeling a little emo here...

maybe it's because there's been going on a lot lately..

or maybe it's because of the few new Jay Chou songs..

i dont know why, but i feel that it's funny that im feeling lonely..

yes, very lonely indeed..

started to think about lots of stuff, stuff from the past, stuff for the future..

just a lot have been going on in my mind..

anyway, i've been thinking about those new Jay Chou songs a lot..

and the only chinese songs that i listen to are only Jay Chou's songs..

hardly listen to any other chinese songs though..

what a shame..

anyway, currently im crazy about and so damn addicted to are these 2 songs:

Nu Er Hong, Shuo Hao De Xin Fu Ne.

feel free to check it out.

although it's kinda emo, it's a good song...

meaningful though..

oh, and i've permed my hair..

dad didnt like it, mom was okay with it..

well, im okay with it...

friends said that it made me look mature...

oh anyhow, it's something new..

love it, hate it, up to you guys..

=)

well, that's about it for now.

- l o v e -

*toodles!*

mc...

Love Story

2008-11-08T10:44:00.005-06:00

came across this song and i feel that the lyrics are so romantically sweet..

Taylor Swift - Love story

We were both young when I first saw you.
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts.
I'm standing there,
On a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd,
And say hello.
Little did I know.

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

a love story with happy ending.

wondering will happy ending happen to me...

once upon a time, i believed happy ending will someday happen to me.

but now, i couldnt be sure anymore.

wondering, just wondering,

will i have a happy ending?

well, with all my best wishes,

i hope you people will have a happy ending.

Love.

mc...

"Shopping Therapy!"

2008-10-21T10:49:00.021-05:00

Rainy day.

so today, me and marcus went for shopping at Bangsar.
it was utterly spontaneous and random.

although i was really budgetting
throughout the whole shopping session,
it was a good shopping therapy for me!

all in all, i've only spent 200bucks!!
and i still have extra to buy myself dinner at Mcd's!

apparently, me and marcus wasnt that happy before Bangsar.
he's stress over his job
and i was still upset over things.

so today we both had a good therapy.
=)

Advice: Shopping is the best therapy especially for girls. Do try having a "shopping therapy" when u're feeling down. it may work!

so anyway, we almost went to all the boutique there is in bangsar.
one boutique to the other.

so i've managed to get 6 items, which are:

2 pairs of earrings

a handbag

a dress

a smocked top

a pair of cute panties

and these are some of the boutiques that we went....

and "ZOMG!"
when we're about to leave Bangsar,
we drop by Aldo,

and i fallen deeply deeply in love with a pair of
rm420 black with white stripes 4-inch high heels!!!

which look exactly like this......

hehe....
got the picture from aldo website.
should check out their website.
so many killer heels!!

and "ZOMG" again!!
i saw price in USD.
it's so much cheaper when converted!!

too bad it's totally out of my budget!
*sob.....sob......sob.....sob*

if not, i've already snatch it!
sigh....

so well, that's all for today now!

*toodles!*

- l o v e -

mc...

Note: Apologise to those who i've offended.

2008-10-21T10:08:00.004-05:00

first of all,

i want to apologize to those who i may have offended.

i've never imagined that whatever statement
i've made in the previous post
would offend anyone.

i take back whatever i said.
and i have nothing further to say anymore.

i will not talk about anything about what happened last friday
since it was me who did not take the initiative to check facebook
and take the initiative to call them instead.

i realize that it was just a fool of me to get piss off
for small little matters.

i sincerely apologize to those i've offended.

i have nothing further more to say.

im sorry for making it such a big havoc.
and i shall try not to do it anymore.

Sincere regards,
Michelle.

2008-10-20T09:17:00.003-05:00

hey people,
things are okay between me and my friend already.
about the others,
guess i just need time to forget about it.

that doesnt mean that im okay with the whole thing already.
it's just that i've decided to let it go.

at least now i know how much i mean to them.

so i actually should not expect so much from them.
it was my mistake to expect too much that i do matter to them.

but at least now, im feeling better as i now know how much i am to them.

just to tell u people that im feeling much better now.

btw, i cooked curry for the first time in my life today.
tasted not bad.
and dont worry,
"IT'S EDIBLE!"

lol.

i didnt sleep the whole night last night
just to finish up the assignment due this morning.
manage to only fell asleep for an hour or two.

then this morning,
i was quite happy that i manage to find a carpark
that i dont need to pay for it.
hehe....
=)

class was hell for me when my brain cant function at all.
but oh well,
i guess it's expected since i've not slept the whole night.

so after class,
i headed to my car.
started my engine and all.
and after 5 minutes of driving,
i just realised that i've switched on my car lights.
i wanted to laugh but was really too tired to do anything.
but i find myself quite funny at that time.
lol....

oh well, that's my day for today.

*toodles!*

love.

mc...

I lost a friend.

2008-10-18T20:33:00.000-05:00

Last night, i lost a friend.
or maybe friends.
right now,
im writing this with great,
and deep,
pain.

was it merely just misunderstanding?
or was it on purpose?
i dont know.
there are full of doubts playing in my mind now.

the story goes like this.
the whole gang went to Quattro on Friday.
and i did not go.

why?

my side of the story is that i was not informed.
the other side of the story is that a few of them messaged me but i did not reply.

one moment, he said that the others messaged me but no reply,
so assuming that im not going cause im emo or somewhat.
then, on the other hand, he said that another friend said that im going,
so assuming that im going so didnt inform me.

the thing is,
i did not receive any messages from them.
and they said that my phone line has problems.
but why did my college friends manage to call and message me when they said my phone line has problems?

to me,
i feel that it's either they've forgotten about me and now tell me things to just to be nice.
or,
they dont want me to go on purpose.

if they really forgotten about me,
now i really know how much i mean to them.

but until now i still dont know.

but if he said that another friend said that im going,
and so assuming that im going so did not inform me,
wouldnt they still call when they reach quattro and ask me
where am i to meet up or something?

if we are that good friends,
dont tell me that u will not call to ask where am i
knowing that your friend is at the same club u're in.

when confronted with him in the end,
im being called self centred.
and then said that im making a small matter a big one.
and that im always like that.
and also keeps on explaining that they all really wanted me to go.
and said that he was too busy that he can only update himself
about my news from two other friends who messaged me.

but in the same time, he did not answer the questions that's been playing in my mind.
he dont get it that why am i so angry.
when the conversation got heated up,
he just hung up and said that me and him cant be friends no more.
sounding annoyed and fed up of me.

to me,
i feel that he maybe feel the guilt
and that's why he hung up.
usually he insist in talking things out
but now, he did not talk things out like normally.

or maybe he does not know how to deal with me.
unable to answer those questions.
i dont know.

but i also did think about it,
maybe he really got fed up of me,
judging by the way how i answered him.

but even doubting and questioning myself
whether or not im the one who's having attitude problem,
all the questions that im thinking of have not been answered.

and personally, i dont feel that im wrong or selfish
to feel angry or jealous that they went and i did not.
because if we were just friends,
i can understand.
but friends who have experienced so much together
and even grew up together and hang out so much together,
i cannot understand.

im hurt because i was left out
whether it's on purpose or not.

never have i imagined that i can get hurt by my own friends.

i ask myself,
is that it?
so we're done?
is that what u really want actually all along?

i dont know.
but these questions are still bothering me a lot.

i am left alone.
and i am left alone with questions.
questions that have not been answer yet.

i ask myself,
should i have just treated the whole incident
as though nothing happen from the start
even when feeling hurt?

but then again,
somehow im the person that can hardly hide feelings at times,
especially at times when im angry and upset.

so if u readers are kind enough,
please tell me what should i do now.
i dont know what to do now,
but i still want those questions to be answer.

mc...

Euphoria, Soul Out, Birthday.....

2008-10-10T07:29:00.006-05:00

i know it's really time to update my blog already.
so here's some updates.

went to euphoria last thurs to celebrate janice's birthday.

ed, lynn, denise, jan, me!

me and the birthday girl!

baby, me, jan

muaxies! *wink*

"stop saying my ass is big, okay?!"
it's not that bad.

me and the girls!

celebrated another time at soul out on last sat.

btw, janice got high for the first time that night at soul out.
lol.
good for her!

well, that's about it for now.

will update more later on.

*toodles!*

- m w a h s -

mc...

2008-09-22T08:12:00.025-05:00

hey people,

initially i wanted to post something about someone,
but instead of giving out some negative energy,
i've decided to post up some random pictures.
most of the pictures are taken throughout the past few weeks.
some are just random old pics.
=)

tadaa!

that's all for now.

*toodles!*

mwahs!

- l o v e -

mc...

2008-09-17T22:38:00.013-05:00

yes, im bored again.
working at my mom's shop isnt really that fun.
oh well, money doesnt come that easy i guess.
anyway, went to sien dee's blog and she finally updated about the China Trip.
so i stole some pictures from her blog.
giving u people a "sneak-peak" about the trip.

so ready?

here it is.
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at the bus stop waiting for the bus heading to town.

"Don't disturb the growing grass"
how lame is that?!
btw, we found this sign at the "West Lake" of Hangzhou.

sien dee & me on the boat at West Lake.

Zoeii & Kah Ying
our "translators" of the trip
without them, we most probably will have communication problems with the locals.
thanks a lot girls =)

ai lynn & wye yee at the internet cafe! thank god we're able to have access to the Internet. if not, we'll be bored to death. but we have to take a 20mins walk from the place we stayed.

During performance....

the Russians

us in "Timang Burung".
spot me!

also the Russians.

2008-09-14T03:25:00.007-05:00

im dead bored now.

bored to death.

so very keterlaluan BORED!

i wasnt bored when i took this picture but it looks like im bored. oh well....

mc...

2008-09-10T09:54:00.002-05:00

it's been happening a lot lately. certain things are going downwards these days.

and i dont know why is it happening.

as time goes by, im feeling lonely day by day.

and i have to deal with it as it is the consequences of my decision.

the feeling is getting worse.

it's worse when me and my parents are not really in good terms for the past two weeks.

i find it so hard for me to have a person to talk to nowadays.

but however, although i do feel upset and down and all that kinda crap, i hope and pray that i'll be fine.

im keeping positivity in me.

i hope i'll be doing fine despite the loneliness in me.

life goes on no matter what, no point dwelling in the past.

live in the present.

- love -

mc...

P.S. Reminiscence makes what we had even more precious. A love to remember and cherish for life. Still hoping....

2008-09-10T09:34:00.002-05:00

To Ethan, Abigail, and Gabrielle.

I pray and hope for ur presence in my future.

With all my sincere love,
Mei.

I'M BACK!!!

2008-09-01T10:57:00.002-05:00

Hey peeps!!!

im finally back from Hangzhou!!

HOME SWEET HOME!!!

have never missed home so much!!

overall, the trip was okay..
or put it this way, it was fun with the girls but not so fun with the show and the place and most of all, the FOOD!!!

hell yeah i miss malaysian food!!

feel so damn isolated from the world for 2 weeks!
and that's because there werent any newspaper!
they do have the Internet but we got to walk quite far to the cc!!

on top of that, throughout the whole trip, drama is always in action!
all those juicy stories!!!
hmmmm.....
if u wanna know, come ask me!
lol....

anyway, i just got home..
so will upload pictures after i get them from the girls...

So,
My Impression of Hangzhou:

polluted and dusty air
dirty
people over there dont really close the door when using the toilet
food sucks (maybe we didnt really manage to come across good food)
not many things to shop
people there love "fing-tao lala" songs
people there are mostly very lala
isolated from English and the world
certain stuff are cheaper there (like manicure, it's only 10-15 rmb)

well, that's about it.

tell u more the next time.

feeling really tired after long hours of travelling.

toodles!

- love -

mc...

Hey Guys It's Nick here.. Mich's in China..

2008-08-26T10:18:00.002-05:00

Ok.. So let's start.. It's been awhile since I've written in here.. Haha.. Hmmmm, ok here it goes..
Before I start, just wanna say that I've been starring at that picture of us most of the time.

Mich a.k.a 'The Princess' is away dancing with her little friends in Chinatown.. Haha.. It's been a week plus since she's been there.. And she's comin home soon on the 1st of Sept..

Ok, so she left on the 17th morning. Sadly I couldn't see her off for her parents were gonna be there.. Gosh, that's sad.. Haha.. But I know that she's gonna be fine. At that moment when I last spoken to her before she boarded her plane, I knew deep down that a big part of me will be missing for the upcoming 2 weeeks..

Ok, so my week started off really terrible.. I had a really terrible gastric pain.. I couldn't sleep.. I couldn't walk, I couldn't eat. Practically, I couldn't do anything much... Just stayed in bed the whole time.. I felt better when the weekend came but unfortunately, when Monday came, it all came back.

Finally decided to go see the doctor and got lots of medication.. And I feel so much better today.

We've been sms'ing each other everyday but for a little cos it's really expensive. Anyway, guess I missed her so much for me realise that living without her is living a life in darkness knowing that there's only one source of light that could just brighten up ur everyday and that's her.

Anyway, I just finished watching a movie, 'Definitely, Maybe'. Starring Ryan Reynolds. It was a really nice movie. I learnt something through that movie. Each one of us has a plan on wat to do or wat to become or who they wanna be with. But as time goes along, that plan sometimes doesn't seem to go the way u want it to be. But in the clear future, that something that u really want deep in ur heart will come searching for u and that's when u'll realise that this is what u really want or who's really meant for u. That's a really good show. U guys should go watch it.

Anyway, right now, I'm just resting on my sofa, resting, typing and thinking bout her. Simply can't wait for her to come back. Till then, catch up with u guys soon.
Oh ya, an update bout Mich, She's fine.. Haha.. That's all.. See ya..

NickLai..

Ciao! im off to China.

2008-08-16T07:17:00.002-05:00

Dear blog,

although im feeling better about the results but it seems that today was also not my day.

had a really rough time today.

anyway, just to inform u people, im leaving for China tomorrow.

hope i'll enjoy this trip.

take care people.

*toodles!*

mc...

2008-08-15T09:51:00.003-05:00

right now im crying in front of my lappie.

i just got bad news.

i failed my EN 102.

im crying really darn hard now.
and i dont know why.
i seldom cry for my studies but im really crying quite badly now.

i thought i can pull it through but it seems that things didnt go the way i wanted to.

just wish something can make me feel better now.
anything.

im leaving for china soon.
it seems that im not really looking forward for this trip.
dont know why.

i dont know what else to say.

i just really wish that i can pull it through this time.

mc...

2008-08-07T10:43:00.003-05:00

I'm officially "20" now!

honestly, feeling kinda sad u know...
sad that years just fly away so quickly.

but anyway, would like to thank those who wished me happy birthday.

and most of all, thanks to the gang who threw a "surprised" mini-birthday celebration.
=)
love u guys to bits!

ah-hem....special announcement: the gang only indicates:
alby, freda, ernest, keng fai & his friend, marcus, bao, carter, aruna, darren, and issac.

also special thanks to my parents.
i finally got a real birthday present from my parents.
first time in my life man.
usually my birthday presents every year are parties and birthday cake only.
finally i've a real present man.
by the way, it's a necklace from swarovski with a key pendant.
dont know why must i get a key.
anyway, im really glad for having a present from my parents.

so im 20 now.
im sad and happy in the same time.
sad that im getting one year older and being sick on my birthday.
happy that i have friends that remember my birthday and threw me a surprise mini-celebration.

it's getting late now.
will update soon again.
oh, and will also post up those pictures later on when i get hold of it.

take care people and thanks for those wishes.
appreciate it very much.

till then.

*toodles!*

- love -

mc...

a little bit about 8th of August this year.

2008-07-31T08:05:00.012-05:00

enough of emo-ness, so im gonnna talk about something that's happy.
or it should be happy.

well, in a week, it's gonna be my 20th birthday.
feeling a year older already,
but still looking forward to what's gonna happen in future.

first of all, im here to tell u people that i really have no intentions to held a birthday bash or some sort.

and so, u people dont need to buy me gifts for my birthday alright?
isnt that great?
im doing u people a favor to save money man.
what a saint i am!
LOL.

however, i'll still be getting some new stuffs for myself, just for a little joy (or let's just say 'syok sendiri') for my birthday.

but first, i hope i'll be able to get my money before my birthday so that i can have a birthday shopping spree.
hehe.

so, things that i wanna get for my 20th birthday:

A pair of Winter White Russian Dwarf Hamsters and a cozy and cool-looking cage for them.

The adult version book of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. (and yes, as a matter of fact, i do read)

A pair of white heels.

A dress.

A white handbag.

A new purse.

Attires for clubbing!

i know im kinda obsess with white at times.
but, most of the time it's only on hangbag, purse, and heels.

*praying hard that i'll be able to get them for my birthday*

*finger-crossed!*

that's all for now people.

*toodles*

- love -

mc...

2008-07-31T07:57:00.003-05:00

I love you.
But,
I hate you.

okay...okay...here's an update....

2008-07-21T06:19:00.003-05:00

currently, i dont really know what to blog about.

???

hmmm....

oh!....i just finished my exam last week.
im now on holidays!!

YAY!!!

Weeeee........

but unfortunately, im still driver to my sister and working in gardens for my mom..
what kinda holiday is that man....

i really dont wanna work for the whole holiday!

going china next month and i feel so not well prepared for the group.
juniors are still so so blurr with what they're supposed to do.

really, sad to say, i really dont feel like going China.

there's gonna be another trip.
it's gonna be in Moscow, Russia on 1st to 6th November.

if i knew earlier about the Moscow trip, i wouldnt go for the China trip.
it'll be a good exposure.

oh well...
i'll just have to stick to the plan.
cause it's too late for any changes.

but still i doubt that my parents will allow me to go.
cause the air ticket price is RM5,500.
but mom seems quite keen about the Moscow trip.

hope i really really can go though.
just hope that i can be away by that time.

well, that's about it.

cant think of anything else to update about.

toodles!

- love -

mc...

Heaven Sent..

2008-07-13T04:51:00.004-05:00

Sent from heaven.
Sent from heaven.

Now you can wait your whole life wondering When it's gonna come or where it's been.
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to,
Don't feel as good as it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Things you used to do, went right out the door

Ooh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
You can't help all your love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Now you can wait your whole life tryna change
What the fear from what it's been
You may have put your whole life into a man
Loving what you thought that could've been.
I don't wanna swing your change
When you don't feel as good as you used to (before)
And everything you used to say,
Everything you used to do clear right out the door

Ooh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
You can't help all your love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Everybody say
I wanna be the one you love
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you trust
wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you need
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one
I wanna be the one (sent from heaven)

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

[fade]

This song is from me to someone.. Heaven Sent by Keisha Cole.
Wanting u to know that I'm always gonna be there for u.
Nick.

Yesterday.....

2008-07-12T08:44:00.003-05:00

I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it i'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)

I know i'll see you again i'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on you face
But they can't take yesterday

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
But i was so wrong
Now i can, believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

(All the broken dreams take everything)
But they can never have yesterday

this is a song from me to someone...Yesterday by Leona Lewis...

im sorry being emo and all...
but im really really in deep pain...

"i dont know what i want."

mc...

2008-07-08T23:02:00.005-05:00

hey guys..
i dont wanna sound emo here but unfortunately i am..
so i really think i need to blog away all these sad shits..

it's been more than half a year i've not been talking to someone.
and this is because i feel that the person has changed.
what i mean changed is that the person found another new group of friends.
anyway, few days back, we finally argued.
sadly to say, we started argueing over a pair of my shoe.
then, out of anger, all the things that i chose not to talk about with her just suddenly poured out.
a friendship that was once so precious was just ruined by the both of us.
although i know that it was partially my fault for exploding, i did not apologize to that person.

back then when i found out that the person has sort of changed, i've just kept quiet till one day, i just couldnt kept quiet anymore.
all my questions and doubts, i just decided to get rid of them and just ignored everything.
and then i became very angry with that person.
feeling abandoned by the person.

the feeling is like we've been so close for a certain period of time and we've been hanging out together so much,
then,
suddenly, the person just stopped hanging out together.
i mean, in my point of view, how would i feel?!

another friend of mine tried helping us out.
at first, i gave it a try to see how thing goes.
but still, it's the same.

i got fed up..and i just couldnt be bothered anymore.
also, in the same time, i chose not to bring it up and make it a big fuss since the person can just treat as though nothing has happened.

somehow, i dont know why, i just feel so left out out of a sudden since the person changed.
maybe some of u really feels that im sensitive or im just making a big fuss over a small matter (which nick always thinks that im always like that).

but if im really okay with whatever that's happening, why would i choose to feel like this?
no one would wanna choose to feel like this.
is there anything that i've offended the person?
why did the person chose not to hang out anymore?

personally, i feel that if u dont wanna have a close friend in the first place, why bother befriend closely with me then?
i just dont get it?!

and now after all the drama and all, everything that the person said just sound as though im in the wrong in the first place.
and that i ignored the person when the person tried mending things.
even though the person apologised about my shoes, the person still sound as though it's alright to stop hanging out with the friends that u used to hang out.
i mean what are close friends then?

if your definition for close friend is "u're still close to "somebody" even if it's been a long time since u last see each other.", then what kind of a friendship it is when friends hang out most of the time together?
i really dont know then.
i thought close friends are friends who always hang out together, and all.

i just dont know lar.

things between the two of us just so terrible now that it's just so hard to mend it back adi.

anyhow, life goes on.
im just here to blog away unhappy shit.

- peace -

mc...

2008-07-03T11:37:00.002-05:00

feeling kinda fucked up now..
cause the assignment that was supposed to due tomorrow was due on 30th June.
which means i've missed passing up my assignment.
and this is because no one told me about the change of due date and me absent in class.
so...yea..
feeling kinda fuck up now...

anyway, at least i handed in my final draft on time.
im a little worry for my human communication subject though.
gotta do my best during finals man.

im currently feeling kinda down.
but im still okay.
just feeling a little down.
so decided to blog away things that are upsetting.
so yea...that's about it..

- love -

mc...

2008-07-02T07:51:00.002-05:00

I STILL HAVE NOT FINISHED MY FINAL DRAFT!!

and it's due TOMORROW!!!

*fuck this shit!*

@#$%@^%#&*^$

mc...

2008-07-01T07:07:00.002-05:00

S-T-R-E-S-S !
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"AGAIN"!!!
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and this is because i have 2 assignment due this week.

*sick of it!*
=.='

@#$%^&!@#$%

- love -

mc...

Further Updates..

2008-06-30T09:23:00.003-05:00

hey people, guess what,
"Further Updates!"

first of all,
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I'm single.

"AGAIN"

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me and nick quarreled AGAIN and i've decided to break up.

reason was that i had enough and i got tired and exhausted.
i feel that i dont have the strength to go on in a relationship like this.
it's just enough.

well, anyway.

on the day that i broke up, i've splurged 400+.
In ONE day!
and i've never spent my money like this before.
this is the first time.
despite thinking about 400+ gone, i really agree with those people who believes in "shopping therapy".
i really felt better after shopping.

now, im still in the shopping mood but i got to stop.
im running out of $$$!
god damn it!

i wonder why didnt god invented $$$ trees.
sigh.

anyway, after dont know long, i finally went to the gym today.
good workout.

and i spotted a pair of heels!
gosh, i so feel like buying it.
sigh.

i really feel that my $$$ is not enough for me to spend.

anyway, my ex schoolmate is getting married tomorrow.
i wonder how will things go.
hmm....

well, that's all for now.

oh, sorry for the late updates ya.

- love -

mc...